welcome to agreement

after doing much thinking, i agree that i did hella lot of mistakes.

one is of course smoking

second is keep pestering her

third is keep pestering her to go out

fourth is broke a promise




shit... what can i do from now on...



should i lay low? or try to keep short conversations with her.


but if i choose the latter, i always cant think of topics to chat up with, always say the wrong things, she seldom go online anymore (or is it), she dont always reply my sms because i think i am getting really irritating.

if i decided to lay low, i really cant stop thinking of her, always hoping that cellphone of mine will glow up and showing her name as the sender/caller. i cant stop the torment of me thinking of her, i dont want to stop it, but at least let me have good feelings, not bad ones.

i am helpless...

&

hopeless...