welcome to unseen

somethingsarealwaysbestleftunseen

welcome to the final lap

school reopened for the last time.

it is the final lap.

it is the fyp.

i dont want to screw this up.

i want to make it big.

big i tell you...






felt like a total coward. i cant even see you without having just to take a glimpse of you. a friend of mine told me i looked tired. i wasn't tired at all. i have been used to the timing of waking up early. The correct word to describe me is that i look miserable. maybe im being a jackass and paranoid, but i didnt see her online for quite a few days. Is it because i am being irritating again?
all i do is just sent a message asking how is she after i read through her blog about her suffering.

is she suffering because of me?

if it is.

i am truly sorry.

welcome to proving myself worthy

when i heard that i have been getting irritating, i couldnt believe it.

love really drive people crazy, you know its wrong/irritating, but yet you still do it, hoping to get the best out of it. but in fact, you are digging your own grave by doing that.

now she has unblocked me again.

despite what she and my friend talked about, she still unblocked me knowing that i might be irritating her.

i really should cherish this chance she has given me.

however...

she approached me for help, yet i have no idea how i can help her, because the topic is out of my league. yet i still try to study about the matter and trying to help her.

but it is working? but no matter what i will still help her out when she is in need. because of that problem, she cant sleep well again, is getting stressed up again. and i dont know her to get unwell again. i really want her to be happy.

i really hope everything is going well for her and hopefully for me too.

welcome to square one

In the house theres...

.one bottle of GIRL

.a stalk of withered rose

.a letter card

In the car boot theres...

.a packet of balloons




Its torturing to see you online but i cant talk to you. Trying to get back in track for my life but there are all these constant reminder of you.

But this is best for now, i seriously need to cool down from everything, i have done everything too fast.

Screw up everything too fast.

I really need to take it slow...

Hopefully the one month strategy works well in the future.

For you and me.

welcome to the end

fin.

welcome to safe child

just went over the song my blue heaven by taking back sunday...

heres the quote i really love
"Is this all too familiar?
Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me
Could you please, just once, just hear me?
More than anything you wanted to be right
Still it's you, you,
It's you I can't deny,
(You I can't deny)
It's you I can't deny."

welcome to gone

i dont see you on the list no more.

where are you

what just happen?